“There’s A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You’ll Find There’s No Need
To Cry
In This Place You’ll Feel
There’s No Hurt Or Sorrow”

If I would to find a genie in a lamp and if it was to grant me a wish , just one wish ; I wish that people start spreading the love and stop the hatred and things are back to where it was meant to be .

Stop being so typical by judging the person attributes and personalities when you know nothing about them , and than you place a mind set that first impression does count . Yes ; I do agree that first impression do wonders , but think again , you may never know what lies beneath a person’s facial expression when you first set eyes on them . You may never know why the put a long face to the world . You may never know why their face are covered with wrinkles . You are not them and they are not you . Have you ever at least try to make an effort to get to know them ?

Flaws and all . We have to learn to accept one another . God has individually design us in his own perspective and he place every different unique qualities in every creation . I keep on saying this ; you are insulting the work of Allah if you talk shit about a person . Yes ; in times when raging anger does you harm . Words tend to spit out like arrows flying across the bright sky , but when you think back ; deep down you feel a nauseous feeling of sheer guilt . It is never to easy to accept one flaws ; but what we learn and what we were taught must always be put into practice .

Patience my friends . Patience . That is what I am learning right now . I heard stories about me and my Pillars . This and that ; here and there . It hurts to know , yes it does but people all have their own judgments and I truly respect that . All I wish is that , evil eyes are thrust upon us and I wish they could actually realize that we are the same as them ; EQUAL in every single way .

We have flaws . So do you . We have curfews . So do you . We are human with feelings . So do you . If you ever think for a second that the words being drill in our minds will hurt us , than your aim is fulfill , but IF you ever think that it will bring us down ; than you better start doing some research because we grew much stronger than before .

Heal the world people . Spread some love . I think this is the right time .

yours truly ,

zimah

When it comes to the world ; everyone is equal . Each and every individual one of us are not living in some kind of a fantasy world . The world whereby you can expect sugary dreams and sweet tasting life . No , that is not it ; we are all stuck in reality . It is proven that every single one of us had a taste of being hit with obstacles ; but we overcome it . It is proven that every single one of us had a taste of love (universal term : family . friends . boyfriends . girlfriends) ; but even if hard times hit our shores , we still overcome it .

Judging by the little sentences that I make , I prefer living in reality that some kind of a fake shit fantasy , because you know why ? All this rough and tough matters that bump my way has actually mold me to become like this . You live and you learn . You cry and you giggle . You fall and you survive . That is how life is design . Accept it . Love it .

Let me end this by saying , life is short enough and holding and bearing grudges just makes you waste a second of your valuable time on Earth . Choose your paths wisely . Plus , think about other people . They are far worst than you . You may be on the edge of breaking down , but have you ever wonder what a person in Africa feels like with no food , no shelter no nothing ? If they have the strength to pull through all odds , I am sure people like us can too .

Insyaallah , ALLAH will guide us . Thank him for every obstacles he gave for at the end of the day , good times will be given for those who shows strength and patience to him .

Now I truly believe that the good things in life are for free . You see ; my girls mean the world to me , and we are like any others , having fun and doing what we love to do . Today was fill with so much laughter till my tummy hurts so badly . I love each and everyone of them . Plus SARA too .

Heeran Performance was awesome . We look like super heroes cum school girls . The first was off the chain but the second one we were having too much fun till we were laughing on stage .

It was all worthwhile , and now

I am waiting for the cheque to roll by Baby .

Hate is such a huge load to weigh in so therefore for now , I shall use the term ; dislike . People are breathing on our necks , with sharp eyes piercing on our backs . The pressure was there but it never took the better of me or us . We were stronger than you can imagine and it took us such a little time to gather and collate everything into Plan B .

Costume hunting was seriously tiring as our mind were already fatigue just running around Town to find the perfect look for us . We were looking for sales here and there , up , down and everywhere . We did not gave up any hope and yes finally we found a nice look that suited our theme . What was awesome was the journey to Cine-leisure . We were all anticipating to lay our hands on our shades . Once we reach , we purchase our shades in Hot Pink . Yummy I must say .

Trudge back to Woodlands for practice and making of props . We call ourself the Cyclop Ladies as all seven of us wore the shades in the MRT . What was even smoking hot was we all sat in the same row so yes , we were being look-ed at . I find that today myself and Miss Perry is super crazy with our British Accent it was super hilarious though .

18 December 2009

Too lethargic I suppose . Till an extent that I slept at 11pm yesterday night . My backbone hurts to the maximum and I had the weirdest dreams of all time . Surreal and scary I must say and I was struggling to get myself out of the dreams .

Yesterday , practice again . Contemporary piece is already done . Alhamdullilah . Good job BRAHH’s . We re-polish everything up and yes I can feel the nervousness as I feel that my whole body was trembling suddenly . Insyaallah everything will be just fine .

On another note , I was elated cuz my favourite Boy called me twice before falling in . We talked about him booking out , the timings and what time should I fetch him and have our dinner either back at home or somewhere near . It was good listening to him . His voice just made my soul feel calm cuz’ now at least I know that he is doing good in camp .

I am lethargic now . I shall end here . GOOD LUCK to Miss Perry and Miss Hilson for results . YOU CAN DO IT BRAHH !

Baby I dont know what it is but you drive me crazy and every time
Im around you boy it feels amazing and im on my best behavior
When im with my baby cuz I cant lose my baby
Lately when youre gone all I do is think about my baby,
im so gone off youre love and I dont know why baby
its the way you love me hold me kiss me cuz baby i

It is 02.01 in the morning and I have a couple of things to trace back and laugh upon . My tummy squeals in excitement just thinking about all those lame ass jokes that was shared earlier , plus a few moment ago , I sent a random video to BRAH Miss Perry and brainwashed her to have that guy as her future boyfriend . Like I say BRAH , he will serenade you to sleep and insomnia nights are no longer evident in your dictionary *giggles*

A dozen of lame ass jokes are keeping me giggling all of a sudden . Like the Kotex joke , the Condominium/Flat joke , the Fish Ball joke and many more . What a day ! To add on , Sasha’s horrific voice is haunting me . I doubt that I will be having a good night sleep later . *huge smile*

Meeting my Pillars tomorrow to get our costume for our competitions on Saturday . Note the S people ; yes we are having two competitions on the very same day . H20 at Mediacorp Studios and Dance Infinity at Redhill . Will be such a rush and hectic day for us , but we will pull through , I am sure of it .

On a side note , I have no clue why I kept on viewing my favourite boy Face-book page . I truly miss him . It is getting awkward and weird not having my phone to ring at this hour . However , I will persevere and get use to this treatment . He will be back in the blink of an eye . So let me work on my patience , this is truly a test for me and for us .

On another note , my gorgeous neighbour came by my house a couple of hours ago . We had the normal life catching up stories to share . I truly appreciate how she loves and support of me dancing . I love her life ; seriously , and I pray to God to guide her in her Exams tomorrow .

I think I shall end this here . I am sleepy-weepy ! Oh , I need to get back studying from next week onwards . 3 modules equals to 3 test when school re-opens and f.y.i I STILL HATE SCHOOL *giggles*

yours truly ,

zimah

I'm selfish cause I don't wanna share
him with nobody not even those
People that came before me
But see I never believe.

God sent me an angel up from above
Whose gonna love me for life
Might as well be perfect
Only because it's the only way
I can describe

My morning was simply a rush as my alarm clock did not went off on the specific time that I thought I had arrange . I was in beads of sweats when the time stared meanly back at me . It was 7 and I was suppose to meet up with my favourite boy at 8 . I was clashing and bumping into things and was jumping up and down with anxiety . For a second , I really thought that I was Wonder Woman in my past life . *giggles*

My favourite boy was booking in at 9 , and I do not work well under pressure ; That is how I am design . I got lost finding my way , I got up and down the same bus for like a couple of times till I gave up on hope and was planning to trudge back home with sadness fill in my system , but than Mama called and asked me to meet her and Ate at Tiong Bahru Plaza as they are heading back home to collect my favourite boy’s belonging . As stubborn as he could get ; he refuses to bring his belongings during Enlistment , and so Mama had to do everything .

Once done , we flagged a cab down to the Headquarters but now Richmond was there because he wants to meet his older brother for the last time . Since Mama and Ate has the pass for visit , me and Richmond had to present our Identification Card to enter . Our reason was to pass “our brother” his belongings , and Richmond was laughing and said ; “how can he be our brother , we have different names” , and I said ; “we have the same brother from another mother” , and Mama was laughing because of that .

We waited in the holding area and I saw a figure emerge from behind . I was filled with happiness and at the same time , I felt sadness rush over me . A lady told us that he had to go to his Unit over at Clementi now and we could go off already . Ate asked my favourite boy to gave me something , and he gave me a kiss in front of Mama . I am patiently waiting for you to come back on the 23rd Baby .

Had lunch and I have to say a big thank you to Mama for treating me . They were asking me to head down to Orchard with them but I had practice to run along . Mama was asking me about how Baby is and how he has been treating me . Mama told me her stories and I feel her pain , and I am praying that God showers her with never ending blessings .

After which went to practice . My decision is final . I shall keep my mouth shut .

My night was made into a splendid one when he called using his friend’s phone . I was beaming and I know he is too . His friends were chaotic and it made my day . Like I say Baby , I shall wait for you to book out and we shall spend the night away . My promises to you ; I shall keep it . National Service is tough , and I will do whatever it takes to lessen the load .

I am done =)

I miss my Baby , and I truly believe that if my heart and soul is strong , than his heart and soul will be too . =D Currently talking to Kaye darl . Kevin is in camp and when he is booking out , she will be flying off to France .

yours truly ,

zimah

But that's the moment you came to me
You don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see though the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you

What a Sunday I must say . I am lethargic ; seriously am . It is such a blessing on how accurate the one above shower me with my holidays at a time when I needed my rest the most . The morning was a rush , I got a text from my favourite boy and worry spreads through my veins just like a virus . Before hand I had to run some errands before catching up with my favourite boy and E-merged .

Since I miss out on FDC’s party the night before , I decided to head down to a suite that Ate Cherrie booked for E-merged and as I step into the suite , I imagine my life with my Pillars , and how cool it was to have a slumber party at that extravagant suite . Maybe the thought shall be discuss *smiles* . The day went by pretty awesome I must say . There were awesome movies back to back just to spend the time away . First it was ; Wanted , Second was ; Step Brothers and the last one was ; X-men . We watched it till the time that everyone had to check out

My favourite boy alongside with Carlo and Zad plus myself decided to head down for lunch at MacDonald’s . As usual , the both of us ordered Double Cheeseburger without pickles , with 2 mayonnaise and 3 curry sauce to go along . I text-ed Miss Riri asking about where she is heading , and they all decided to head down to a computer shop near Dhoby Ghaut to play Left 4 Dead 2 . Yes people ; I finally got my eyes set on Left 4 Dead 2 . My favourite boy was too engross in playing and it was rather amusing looking at how adorable he could get .

On a side note , I saw this nice robe for our contemporary piece . I envision how the three of us will look like on that particular day . Speaking of the competition , I am nervous about it . One of us just saw her work schedule and I am really nervous about it . Shall discuss with everyone tomorrow when we are in the circle .

I guess this is it , oh by the way , I got back my old laptop and it is really slow . Cannot wait to get my hands on my laptop on Thursday ! Patience baby patience . I shall use the laptop till the morning , because I am meeting my favourite boy at 8 in the morning as I am sending him to his Enlistment thing over at Queenstown if I am not mistaken .

So till here ;

pillars I miss you so

The phone began to rang and my sleep was disturbed , but it was all worth while . My favourite boy text message me asking me to accompany him to the building near Lavender to get his Identification Card done . Ask Mama for permission and despite knowing that the building was already by than close I still went on with my plans of meeting my favourite boy and my Girls to get back my camera . I was simply amaze by how quick I got change because Lavender and my place is like separated into two different sides of Singapore .

Upon reaching , as usual my heart began to beat fast whenever I locked eyes on him , and since the building was closed , we decided to take our time and walked to Beach Road to have my lunch . We had so much time to kill , so we sat down and he randomly took some pictures of himself . How adorable . Knowing the whereabouts of my Girls , we than took the train to City Hall . Supposingly the initial plan was to meet at Orchard but my favourite boy had some urgent matters to attend too *giggles* .

Since his prepaid was down , I helped called Jr , Zad and Ate Cherrie for him . It was hilarious moment for us because I had to say “Where are you” in Tagalog , and when I did , Jr and Zad replied me back in Tagalog and I was laughing so hard with confusion till I had to pass my phone to him . He than met up with Ate Cherrie for his Christmas Party with the Filipino Dance Club which I was suppose to attend too as well , but I had a family matter to go next .

Bus rides to my grand-parents home . Everyone was there and I came a little later . Abah said that he will present me with a 4gb Ipod Nano for my birthday , what’s more awesome is that , it will be in my favourite colour ; GREEN *huge smiles* . Well , I am not in my usual happy mood actually . Some stuff happen , I need to get my room clean . I want to go out in the morning to realese some tension .

Monday equals to sending my favourite boy to his Enlistment . Nervous much . Well till here .

yours truly ,

zimah